Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.

Hi guys I am back ! So sorry for taking so long to update my blog. I have been so busy trying to add new features to my blog to make sure you can enjoy your time to read my blog posts as much as possible. Today I am going to blog about how was I celebrated my birthday on 11th of  November with my loves. It was on last Friday. A bunch of my friends were offered their time for me, and to company me to over my very special birthday which the date is triple 11. For those teenagers of Alor Star who really craving to go Penang yet have no transport to go, what to do? It is very convenient, you only need to go to the bus station, Shahab by the time you want to go, it is depends on you. Each half hour have a bus to take you there and it costs you only RM9. My friends and I started our journey at around 9.30am and it took us half an hour to reach. We took taxi to bring us to Queensbay Mall. We were all need foods to satisfy our hunger cravings and as our brunch then some of them suggested us to Dragon-i, so we had our brunch there. This was my very first time to go to this restaurant, I expected for the foods. The food that impressed me is "xiu long pau".

"xiu long pau"

It is really special. Sorry for not being thoughtful, I didn't take any photo of the foods that we ordered. This " xiu long pau " is quite nice, the liquid inside came out with a spurt when you have a bite on it, the liquid inside is kind of chicken soup. You guys suppose to have a try. Mr Zebra was ordered a kind of mango ice-blended. The color of the blended looks fascinating. I am so regret for not having a try :(

The next station was to shopping around, Mr Hama , Ms Tian er, Mr Giraffe, and Me were classified in a group. Mr Kangaroo, Mr Fish, Mr Elephant, Mr Tiger, Mr Zebra were in a group. Then, Mr Leopard and Mr Frog had their target-shopping to Hot elements. Sometimes, the thing you like, ain't for sure have your size. What the dutt dutt, it had happened to us! It made us lost the mood to continue to shop. But in the end I bought a pair of shoes. Half way to shopping, we met Mr Leopard and Frog, then we went to have our high tea at Baskin Robbins together. Mr Giraffe and Mr Hama bought us each person a cup of Starbucks coffee, caramel flavour. Dislike the taste of caramel, so I gave it back to Mr Giraffe. Then Mr Hama bought himself a Chattime to drink. hehehe

 Our next station will make you guys drool, watch out, haha. It is Tuitti Fruitti ! It is only next to the mall. So, we walked there. It is self serving cafe, so I chose on my favourite flavour, Vanilla and Chocolate Ice-cream. I added up some oreo powder, which is pulverized it into smaller particles in a mill.

It is loved.

Do you see a banana pie inside one of the cup? That is Mr Giraffe one, he is a herbivore, haha. We spent about half an hour there, I think. We made jokes, laughters. I saw a really cute kid you know, his action was fascinated me, I feel like wanted to sayang him, I don't know why. He has a very cute hair that makes him looks cute. I want to have a kid like him! He is just too cute, he tried to friend with us!

This is the time when we try to hide up ourselves 

just to let them to find us out. 

Around 4.30pm, my group went to Gurney and it was our very last station of the day and we enjoyed the most, the happiest moment there. I really feel secure when I was with them, they made me feel like I could be myself, like nobody cares to lose the image. We play, we laugh, we joke, we own ourselves a very unforgettable memories. The happiness that is indescribable, the laughters that you can hear anywhere we go, the smile on our face. Those things and peoples around us were like frozen, we did whatever we want to. We played hide and seek, the most pretty memories, how we made each other get shocked, and we laughed after the funny things that we did. The funny incident in Winter Warmer, who cares? The time that they try to find us out from somewhere, the time that we went into the shop and they chose the pretty items to let us to try. The every single memory built up a happy day. Then we have our dinner at BBQ Plaza, and John King's egg tarts.  We made jokes along the way back to home. Oh ya, I met Jiapei in Gurney too, she surprised me.Yes, although there was no birthday cake, no candle light dinner, but I had passed my birthday with no regrets. At least, I had own indelible memories with my friends. I love how I can enjoy myself all the way. Dear friends, I do appreciate our friendship.

Mr Giraffe : Chen Ping

Mr Hama  : Wei Shen

Ms Tianer : Xueer

Ms Lion   : Me

Mr Frog   : Ben

Mr Zebra : Jue Zhi

Mr Tiger  : Wei Yee

Mr Kangaroo : Liming

Mr Fish : Keat Hui

Mr Elephant : Zikuan

Mr Leopard : Lingyit

Love your haters, because they are your biggest fans. They keep on wasting time just to watch your every wrong move.

Sighed. It was a bad that my school reopen on tomorrow. Can the time travels back to a week ago, when the end of the test and the coming of holiday? How great if there is such a thing as "Time Machine" exists in this world. There is no such advanced technology yet, anyway it seems an impossible stuff. Whenever a moment is gone, then it is gone, and so my holiday finally coming to the end, with a feeling of missing it terribly. I am trying the best to enjoy the last day of holiday to the fullest, sleep until 2pm in the afternoon, online for over few hours and watching movies, had no assignment to do besides than sleep, eat, play. The assignments, was pass into silence, was forgotten, pitiful, going to pass up in this coming end of September. I have do nothing yet it have a lots of stuff to do. I have no idea for what to do, what to type, what to pass up. So now, I am hoping the time can quickly jump straight to November for another holidays, and my birthday celebration in a blink of eye. What I did during the past holiday? Generally nothing besides than rolling at home! That is a must in holiday,  also an opportunity to have much rest and strength for next battle ( following test ). The pleasure of rotting would be gone in less than 24 hours. Happy time always passes faster. I hate the first day of school reopening. You know why? They will have a checking. As if you are a Keat Hwa student, you will know that it's school rules. The only rule of the school that I hate it so much is, boys must be in botak while girl must be in short hair which maximum under 6cm of ears. Can you think of the shortness? They want us to become an ahdai, idiots' looks. If your hair are over longer than the 6cm, our Keat Hwa's hairdressers ( Discipline teachers ) will help you to save up your money to saloon to have a haircut, they will help you to cut on a nice, standard, cute hair. As I am in Keat Hwa for about four years and my hair was cut by only once. The onlyonce, the feelings was mixed and you know you would be like " What the hell you bitch teacher! Let me to take your scissor to help you to cut on your hair too! I curse you have a head of bad quality hair and ugly hair for forever! I will remember you and revenge on you! Revenge Revenge Revenge, I will be back! I will have a revenge on you on someday! Wait me! " You can't even smile or laugh at all on that time. I was a freak on that time, super ugly. It was happened since I was form 3, the childish girl. Till now, I still remembered which teacher that had a cut on my hair. Forget about it. Lastly, to all of the hater : Please, never judge me because you don't know what I've been through. Don't judge me before you know me. It is alright if you don't like me or even hate me, I don't wake up everyday to impress you.


106 sweetheartdays ♥

Getting to know more about me.

I am type of girl who loves to sleep but reads all through the night. I am type of girl who fails at sports but wins at every game. I am type of girl that always cries but covers all the pain. I am type of girl that is ready to believe all those convincing lies. I am type of girl that hates all those awkward scenes. I am type of girl who'll stick by your side even when your dead. I am type of girl who says what she feels and means every single word. I am type of girl that falls up stairs and sings songs you have never heard. I am type of girl who spends her life writing stupid status. I am type of girl that begs for love but is too afraid to fall. I am type of girl who feels so short even though she is tall. I am type of girl that will hate those who leave her until feelings fade. I am type of girl who can never decide on what she wants to eat. I am type of girl whose had her heart broken and wonders what went wrong. I am type of girl you can hardly understand, but you can thoroughly understand if you try to. I am type of girl who dreams of what she'll never be. I am type of girl who can only be defined as different and complicated. I am type of girl who regrets little things from the past. I am type of girl who loves getting dressed all fancy and acting like a princess. I am type of girl who can be hurt but will take times to make someone else happy even though she can't make herself. I am type of girl who acts all tough but is really not as tough as you think. I am type of girl who jokes around but sometime likes to be serious. I am kind of girl who can take so much pain and bottles it all up inside. I am type of girl who wants something to be different and new. I am type of girl that can be so hurt but still look at you and smile. I am type of girl who is willing to brighten your day even if I can't brighten my own. I am type of girl who thinks about wanting to be pretty. I am type of girl who laughs out loud in the middle of silence. I am kind of girl you can hear from miles away and if you are sad its her jobs to make you happy. I am type of girl who will put up on a status just to describe exactly what she feels deep inside. That is me.

My 102 lovedays

Maybe it's when I allow everything to fall apart, I realize who cares and who doesn't.

Friend often share likes and dislikes, interests and passion. Beyond that, a genuine friendship involves a shared sense of caring and concern, a desire to see one another grow and develop and a hope to each other to succeed in all aspects of life. True friendship is, doing something for someone else while expecting nothing in return, sharing thoughts and feelings without fear of judgment or negative criticism. Many people would say " Hey, he/she is my best friend. " yet they never take times to spend with the "best friend". Friendship takes time to get to know each other, time to build shared memories and time to invest in each other's growth. Trust is essential to true the friendship, we all need someone with whom we can share our lives, feelings, thoughts and frustration. We need to be able to share our deepest secrets with someone, without worrying those secret will be end up with hot topic of peoples in school the next day. Failing to be trustworthy with those intimate secrets can destroy a relationship in a hurry. In a true friendship, there is no backbiting, no negative thoughts , no turning away. Real friends encourage on another and forgive one another where there has been an offense. A true friend is supportive of you and your goals, they will know what makes you tick and help you to become the person you want to be, they won't try to change who you are or drag you into situations that makes you uncomfortable or put you at risk of  losing something that matters to you. They are fairly good listener and notices how little, day to day things affect you. They can't read your mind, but they can usually tell when you are happy, sad, excited, shocked or upset. They won't gossip about you constantly or try to damage your reputation. They will let you know when they are concerned and do their best to stick up for you when you are in trouble. A true friend stick with you in good times and bad, accepts you for who you are, even when you are being a butt head. They are patient with you when you make mistakes, even big ones, and learn how to forgive you when you hurt them. In other words, they treat you as you would like to be treated, even when you aren't at your best.

71 days in love ♥

Don't ever depend on someone else, or you will always be disappointed.

“My girlfriend and I have been dating for over 3 and a half years now. Her parents always had a problem with me and she knew that I was not that rich from the time we started going out. For three years she told that if a problem was to arise, she would remain with me no matter what. Out of the blue she tells me a week back that she needs a break and now she tells me that this can’t go on any further and started acting like a girl I do not know. I loved her so much and you wouldn’t believe the love we had for each other. I worked after coming back from the university and saved money so that we can have a extravagant engagement party. However, her mom always wanted someone really rich and one who already has everything. Life with me would be uncertain for her future and she is now confused about what to do. I tried everything to convince her to stay with me, but in vain. My parents are fine with her, but it is her parents that is the problem. Now we are not talking for over a week. We used to share cars while going to the uni and even eat food together. Now we don’t even do that. She stares at me in the classroom, and does not mix with friends but cries alone. However, when I go near her, she becomes stern and tells me to forget her. I feel so helpless. Even her relatives are involving themselves in our relationship. Please tell me what to do. I’m devastated. Should I forget her?
Why will these problems often occurs in our life? Hello? The mother or daughter would be the one who carry the man's hand till old with white hairs in the future? Who would be the one who stay with him and walk through the rest of his life? Why must her sacrifice their love just for her mom, who would eventually accept the fact? Nevertheless, there is nothing to do to change her family's perspective. Reality affected the truth and the truth is.. love couldn't conquer all. Would you marry a guy because his parents is rich? It sounds tempting to some of you but sounds poor to me. Perhaps some of you might say "Oh yes. This will be in my consideration." How stupid you are, if you have a mind of thoughts like this. That's his parents' money, not his money. Will his parents give the money to you unreasonably? They will. But just to their son, under their sons' name, never under daughter-in-laws' name. Who will be such an idiot to put their properties under a strangers' name? To them, sons' wife are still outsider. Why don't you choose to marry a guy which is rich of self-made-money?  Why don't you have your own high education with credential? What I meant is, career woman. You don't need to rely on mans. You use your own money, spend your own money. And If you get into a divorcement, you can never expect for alimony. 


53 days in love ♥ 

One of the best feelings in the world is when you’re hugging a person you love and they hug you back even tighter.

Feeling great to stay on bed when everyone were trying so hardly to get up from bed. How happiness it is. As I know, some people may say sleeping is a waste of time. And yes I am not the exception. I always try to question myself when I was still young "Why should I waste all that time sleeping, having bad dreams, sweating and waking up tired?" But if you have ever thought that your sleeping periods are actually a huge waste of time, you should better think again. When a person is awake, the body cells are continuously active and as time during the day progresses they become more or less fatigued. The body needs to recharge, to repair and recover from  the daily demands. Your feeling about sleep may have been shaped by your past. Just saying, I like to sleep. It is a break from hectic life. I can see and do things I can't in real life. It is whole other experience. Like a small vacation from reality. And I guess I have enough odd dreams at times that is like reading a book. But as much as I sleep, I also like to stay up all the night, night is peaceful. When I was still young, I hate to sleep. Didn't see the point. It is boring to lay down in bed and wait for sleep. And now, I think it is wonderful to have a sleep.Sometimes, what I meant is just sometimes,  that me-time peacefulness is just as relaxing and refreshing as sleep can be. Sometimes, I love being awake while everyone else here are sleeping. I read and research things that interest me, and think my thoughts with no adversity to shut me down. I sometimes just stay up until I fall down in a dead sleep. It is more refreshing than a worried sleep. No matter how much sleep you get or how much sleep you wish to have, you should be happy that you are not a giraffe. Giraffe sleep standing  up and only do it  for a few minutes at a time. They never lie down to sleep. So, you should appreciate that you are a human being. Today onwards, love yourself to the max than any others else.

39 days in love ♥

I wish life was a remote. Play the easy times. Pause the good times. Fast forward the bullshit. Rewind the memories.

I wanna earn a lot of money in future, I wanna be a millionair. That is a fond dream, our earnest wish. Whoever don't wish to be a millionair? Some people do it through their own bussiness, while some simply get  lucky by winning  the lottery or winning big on a game show. I pondered the concept of "striking" rich, and the million dolar dream that we all seemed to be attracted to. Many of us seem to have bought into the illusion of what a million dolars will bring, the vision of lasting happiness, of ultimate comfort, the end of trying and suffering. But does it really bring us those things? Does it really bring about that happiness which we all seek? This is where it gets interesting. For one thing, it certainly doesn't bring lasting happiness, or the end of suffering, or solves all our problems. It doesn't cure loneliness or fulfill our desire to live with more meaning. Example, try to imagine of someone who wants a house, and he/she gets a house. He/She wants to move to a new city, and she gets up and moves without bringing any luggage. It only bring temporary satisfaction,  it doesn't bring what matters to us most, inner peace, fulfilling relationships, and lasting happiness. Having million of dollars isn't going to extend your life, it wont helps you to find true love, it wont make you healthier, it doesn't make you feel less alone, or more fulfilled. If we can't find any happiness and fulfillment now, having millions of dollars later will not get you any closer. And so, the happiness is what we all seek, our choice is simple. " Tomorrow " is an excuse that will take your dreams  to the grave with you. Start living now with your dream now, whatever that is. After seeking out, I've come back to the same place as when I started, I just want to be happy. It is the one that I can experience to the fullest right now. If you have millions of dollars, how would your life change. What would you be doing. Self-examining. Share your thoughts with me in the comment below.

The boring yet memorable holiday ♥

Hey guys! I'm so sorry for not updating my blog regularly. Due to the busy weeks of holiday that crammed with the dates, I had no time to update my dead blog. And yes I am back. No more emotional posts. I am going to share you guys my sunny holidays. The first week of the holiday, I had a date out with love one, it was a movie day. 29th of May, the super great and memorable day. Next, to the Thailand, Hatyai trip with family members. Shopped like nobody cares. Spent too much on Hatyai's trip. The things are so freaking cheap. Some of you might not like the quality, it's not branded. Who cares the cheap things. Frazzle and scrap. I am not the kind of branded-lover, that are trending on the branded . Gucci, Channel, Amani, LV and so on. I personal feel that we dont really need to use on branded at our state of ages. ( Okay, just ignore me, alright? ) Went to a camp on the second week. Wanna apologise to my leader, campers, and helpers. I am not really get high and get into the situation. With the allowance, I stayed inside the classroom to rest. I was so sick of my sorethroat and flu and missed a lot of games. For my discontented group-arrangement, I am so sorry. Just wait for my next post, deal? I know this post bored you guys a lot, cause it was nothing special in my holiday. Goodnight peeps.

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no.

I do not like people being late. I hate standing out by being late. So I do try to be punctual as much as I can. But if I am late, I will try not to flip out about it or anything. I mean I am not a perfectionist here. But why are there people who are habitually late? It's incredibly rude and there is no excuse for it. If you are late once in a while, it's possible that there are legitimate extenuating circumstances. If you are late all the time, it means you are inconsiderate and unwilling to take the trouble to be on time. There isn't anything that makes it all right. You have inconvenienced everyone and possibly thrown off people's plan seriously. It just says and meant you don't care. Some people are just always late, no matter what. It almost seems like they must be living in another reality where all the clocks are set differently. This can be really frustrating, especially if you are the kind of person who is always on time. It's suck having to wait around for people, wondering if they are ever going to show up. I am a very punctual person and I'll always make sure to be just in time, rather a bit early. If I say I am going to be there at 12, it means that I plan on being there at that time and it's going to be my priority. For sure there are emergencies, but traffic jams are entirely foreseeable. You should budget for that too. Also if you are over 13 years of age you should have an intuitive grasp of how long it takes you to get ready. The main reason why I hate people who are late is, it shows they don't have enough respecto for you to make a little effort to come in time. They are not responsable. Some of them dont care being on time at all. They don't seem to have anything under control. They don't have any proper plans. They must waste so much of their life being late for silly reasons such as "being hungry so going to the 7-Eleven, spending 20 minutes inside, buying something and thereby missing the bus having to wait another 10 minutes for the next one." OH GOD WHY? Why can't they think of things like that in advance? Or if they know they are going to be late, at least give a call before they are being late. For another example, some of them dont care about being on time at all. When planned to go to somewhere else at 12, reminded them, and they will be like " oh just 30 minutes ", which ends up being at least two hours. So, PLEASE BE PUNCTUAL. 

Love is in the air. He was awesome ♥

Hi peeps, as I promised, I would be here to continue to blog on this post, so.. I would like to carry out my promise now.  First of all, happy holidays! Having a swinging mood now right? The exam weeks must be stressed everyone, is time to relax peeps! Planning where to go? Dating? Oh-oh my love! Love one would be going to Langkawi Island for about three days. I would be staying at home and like a mummy's girl. I wanna have a date, I wanna movie, I wanna toothsome food, I wanna bite hubby's hand. I wanna learn on how to cook tasty food. *winks*.

I wanna talk about Trustworthiness. A very very frigging word. It simply mean believable, convincing, credible and dependable. It is needing in every healthy relationship. For example, if there is no trust word in any random relationship. Jane and Jack, the couple. They fell in love with each other and they got into a marriage. Jane doesn't genuinely trust on him, she suspects. She does whatever and just want to let herself to trust him. She goes from frustration to depression. Jack didn't want to share with Jane what he was doing and thinking. As the pastor said in marriage two become one. But Jack and Jane couldn't be one if Jack wouldn't share his thoughts to Jane. They are headed for trouble unless he realizes he has to change. If Jack insists on going on with his mysterious routine, he will become increasingly frustrating to her, and this will slowly empty most of his love in her heart. When it eventually drifts into negative territory, Jane will become a vulnerable target for a man who knows how to make her feel secure with honesty and openness. A sense of security is the bright golden thread woven through all of a girl's five basic needs. If a husband doesn't maintain honest and open communication with his wife, he undermines her trust and eventually destroys her sense of security. To feel secure, a wife must trust her husband to give her accurate information about his past, the present and the future. What has he done? What is he thinking or doing right now? What plans does he have? If she can't trust the signals he send ( or if, as in the case of Jack, he refuses to send any signals ), she has no foundation on which to build a solid relationship. Instead of adjusting to him, she always feels off balance, instead of growing with him, she grows away from him. The wife who can't trust her husband to give her the information she needs also lack a means of negotiating with him. Negotiation between a husband and wife is an essential building block to the success of any marriage, but without honesty and openness a couple can resolve or decide very little. In a conclusion, Jack is not necessarily being dishonest, he is simply keeping his thoughts, activities, and plans to himself. This caused the distortion, detrition of trust in any relationship. I trust my hubby, I love him. *blush*

Days 7, love ♥

Love isnt just cuddling or whispering sweet nothings, its compromising, sacrificing & giving up something just to make the relationship last

有时候不要尝试着想去改变一个人或东西。听说过，世界上唯一不变的就是变。改变一个人不是不可能而是不容易。有时候当你觉得你有能力可以改变任何一件事后，才发现原来你并不能，那该怪谁? 世界上没有什么事是绝对。有时候 别人会常说常问 你是不是变了? 又或者有人会说 你怎么变了个人，我们怎么变得陌生了 再也没有从前的那股纯真执著 感觉也变得不像从前。经常会有人这么说。但事实上你并没有改变很多，只是长大了 成熟了 懂得思考 分辨对与错了，你只是瞬间不活在他人的世界里 为他人而活。逃避没有什么不好，太理智想犯罪突然变得虚伪。讨厌那个总是想用着逃避的方式去面对任何一件事 的自己。害怕去面对的性格 好强中有点懦弱 没有任何一个人会想要失败 对吗？回忆不会说谎 它记录着开心 伤心 失望 种种好或不好的记忆。几天前，突然翻看了FB的ALBUM, 那里确确实实着实着好多好多回忆。记得, 去年 参加了一个生活营。记得那是我第一次参加这类型的活动 难免会抱着有些期待。不负众望, 生活营的的确确让我们留下了许许多多的回忆。现在的大家 还过得好吗? 即使现在大家见面了 可能也会觉得只是路过的陌生人 对吗?  记得, 那时候的我们并没有停止过的笑容。还记得, 那个把全部人都吓坏了的 夜里探险活动吗? 那时候真的真的把我们都吓坏了, 凭空着想象 , 蒙着眼 , 夜生无人 一个人在一个隐隐凉凉地森林里 还要在那里呆上十分钟之长, 有谁会确保不会想歪, 好多人会这么问 那边是不是有鬼。谁知道, 那竟然是一个什么都不是的骗局 , 我们身旁都有人, 还有着蚊子们的欢呼声, 我们一个一个接二连三的成了牺牲品, 蚊子们都喝饱了我们的血, 幸福了它们 委屈了我们。还有还有 那个什么像似PREDATOR-PREY游戏的, 我们都得躲起来, 等着PREDATOR来抓。记忆中, 我们是多么的狼狈却很开心地在笑着, 那时候还下着雨, 还好只是毛毛雨。还有还有, 我们就是这样躲在草丛中, 用着一棵棵树挡着我们。树下都住满了红蚂蚁, 有些人还被叮咬得全身发红。还有, 我们一起玩过的STATION-GAME! 回想起还真希望今年还会再有着这么样的一个生活营 

Love me when I least deserve it because that's when I really need it.

我想说的是 有时候付出不一定会有回报。其实 有时候即使真的真的 尽力了 真心的开场白而最终还是会是失望的闭幕。我不懂 不明白 有些事为什么别人能做到 而我却不能。或许 有些人会说: “可能你还没真正的去尝试” 不是我不去尝试, 尝试了 却不能达到想要的结果。想说 有时候 同样的付出 未必会得到同样的回报。 看了她的部落格 不懂怎么了 哽咽了 我不懂为什么 哪来的那一阵冲动得想哭的感觉。是失望了 还是什么了? 没有想过会在这样的情况下知道  原来答案会是这样子。嘴上说说的无所谓 是真的不介意了 还是只是在自欺欺人? 谁晓得。曾经的想要去表达些关心。 过了， 过了，都过了。说实在的 那种滋味 并不好受。有谁会喜欢这种感觉? 我不喜欢。 一行行阿拉星球字 对我来说 它们还很陌生 但却得了解它们。对与这些还陌生的我 该怎么办? 耗尽了 好多好多时间 却无法牢记它们的脸孔。想说 别人也有跟我一样的脑袋 可是为什么他们的脑比起我的， FUNCTION得好些。想问 怎么样才能WELL-FUNCTIONING? 有时候 真的很羡慕那一些头脑棒得不得了的人， 天才啊! 埋怨的说 妈妈为什么不把我的脑袋生得天才些。讨厌自己 太笨了 太烦了。做什么事都做不好。朋友们都说 : “ 啊 你怎么这么烦 ” 怎么办嘛 我的性格就是这样啊。我的兴趣就是烦人啊 ( 开玩笑的啦 ) 算了算了 不想了。怎么世界上就是会有这些人 喜欢在人前人后说别人的不是 有的没的都给你说出来 有些时候是真的真的太荒谬了。往别的方向想吧，来得快乐些。有些时候 别人把你当成话题时 不管是好是坏 都应该感到庆幸 就是因为你有比别人的特别之处 所以才会成为话题。IGNORE 他们吧，没什么好理会的。

The best feeling of happiness is when you're happy because you've made somebody else happy.

First of all, I would like to wish my beloved one, Jowen a very happy birthday. Sincerely wish you could really enjoy your day, our surprise, and our girls' night. Am I too late? ( Hmm..haven 12 o'clock! ) I'm so sorry for what I had done past few days ago. I know I might be very annoying sometime ( just sometime ), anyway you have already used. As usual and old version, dreams come true, always always and always. Lucks and cupid along. We are always by your side to carry you. Friendships that are never end. You're loved. Thanks to Vince , a very big and million thanks to you, for your waiting while we were cleaning up the hall and hold us up at sinmin private to Rocks then Times Cafe. Truthfully thank you. Not to be forgotten, the cake. Thanks for the helping. I don't know what to say, and just thanks! Next, I want to blog about our Interact Installation night. Thanks god, everything's went well and thanks for the performers for giving great performances. Some of them might disappointed of the response but it's over, just forget about it. We tried our best. You guys are always the rocketeer. Apology here, sorry to my masters, if I didn't help up. My legs were excruciating pain. Thus, my nails are going broken. I haven't started my revision and I don't know how am I going to sit on my exam. The water flows. Sometimes more, sometimes less, always flowing, though. Trickles down into a steam, meandering out into that forested meadow. As I think about that today, I'm drawn into the flow of this water. It always flows, always moves. Sometimes it's gushing out, other times not much more than a trickle and then moving on, that which lands upon the earth. Is not life like that ever-flowing? In our daily lives, we're ever-flowing on this journey we are creating. It's you, at your most pure and real state, and it's what adds so much beauty and life to your world. Just like the spring water, giving life to that which it touches, so you give life to yourself and all that you touch when your deep and true soul is let out, shared, and lived. Be you, the real and amazing you that is there, within you.

I love you, hubby.

Love isn’t about flirting, hugs & kisses. Love is about taking all those things away and still having feelings for that person.

Happy Labour Day. It is sunday, most of people don't have to work on this day. It is the day especially offered to the workers. My relatives came back from Butterworth yesterday ( Saturday ) for a simple celebration of Mother's Day. Mother's Day is actually on 8 May. For some factor, we celebrated on yesterday. I enjoyed, the homey-steamboat is delicious than abalone, the rubber food. I wondering why peoples waste their money on eating rubber. Happy Mother's Day, Momma and Grandma! Use your own way to express your heartfelt loving thoughts about motherhood or to your own mother. I don't care whether it is only a Mother's Day cards, scrapbooking, scrapbooking journaling or greeting cards, it's just a regard of a son or daughter to a momma. As if you're a mother to your kids, you know that somehow for the next few decades or for as long as you live, you'll be wearing your heart on your sleeve. And as a daughter to your own momma, you also begin to appreciate the courage and challenges your momma has gone through for you. And your respect for her grows and grows. Quotes : A man loves his sweetheart  the most, his wife the best, but his mother the longest. ( Irish Proverb ), A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie ( Teeneva Jordan ), A mother's arms are made of tenderness and children sleep soundly  in them ( Victor Hugo ), A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path ( Agatha Christie ). The mother who birth you was never greater than the mother who grown you up into adult. Some of these conscienceless and irresponsible humans, who birth their baby and abondon them in the garbage or roadside. I hate this kind of momma! My mother always used to joke with me, she gets me from garbage. I believe, when I was young and still a little girl! How stupid am I, hahaha! Can't stop laughing at myself when flashing back to memories. I love my papa, my mummy, and my family. In the whole world, there are so many pair of couple, so many momma, but not every momma is great. Inversely, not every child are filial pirty. Press into it, this is what I get to know from Fb and I surfed it from google. Hey, that is your momma! I'm curious about your conscience, where do it gone? Vanity heart eats up all of your conscience, it occupied your heart more than what a mother did for you? This kind of children are brainless enough. Kay, I am going to stop here and off to study, exam is around the corner and I'm not yet revise! I might go mad if I continue to blog about this useless daughter! Waste energy and time. Pity on you, old momma. I hope you're okay now. Lastly, to someone. I am sorry to you, million of sorry to you, I know exactly my sorry wasn't use at all for counteracting what I'd done to you. I'm just sorry, I'd make a promise here for not repeating this. Forgive me please :(

Saranghabnida 난 당신에게 내 소중한 사랑

Don't expect guys. My teacher told my class about love. She said, I love you is a very common words now if contrasting with hundred years ago. Am I too exaggerating? Years ago, if a boy says " I Love You " to someone, some thought comes into your mind, and you will instantly know that he is saying to a girl, to his girlfriend, to his wife and to the one he loves. The same situation, if a girl says the three words, you would know that she is saying to a boy, to her boyfriend, to her husband and to the one she loves.
The three magic words, " I Love You " is expressing one's love by saying those words is a crucial step in any relationship. Normally girls do not like to confess that they are in love with a boy. It is a sort of masculine privilege and duty, you might say. You cannot to go up to someone and say " I Love You ". Love at first sight is a doubtful context for saying the three words. After all the sort of sudden attraction when you meet someone and feel a blinding passion or know from your instincts that he or she is the right person for you is nothing more than an infatuation. True love is gentler, more mature. " I love you " doesn't mean " I want you right now ". Rather it means " I want to be by your side always, I want to hold your hands and look deep into your eyes, I want to wake up every morning with you by my side. " In a mature love, people tend not to blurt out their love as soon as they meet a person after their heart. They wait till they come to know the person better. When you finally feel from the bottom of your heart that you're sure about being in love with this person, it's the time to say these words. People sometimes think why is it they have to be the first to confess their love? Why cannot the other person do so? It can be very embarrassing for a girl when she says " I love you " and receives a sheepish grin or a distracted reply in return. Again, there are times when a man wants to say " I love you " but cannot do so for the fear of rejection. At such times, it is best to trust your intuition to choose the right step. The timing of saying these words is important as well.

Back to topic, what I want to say is, in this century " I love you " might be a manners. It can be a girl to girl, a boy to boy, a girl to her ex, a boy to his ex. It's so common now. Some people still immature or even the abuse of this right. They used these words to get what they want and what they need. To the last hurt it will only be girls. That's why I hate liars. True love do not need to speak it out but feel it out. Time can heal a wound, create a relationship but can also destroy it. Trust me, don't speak these words too many times to too many people, it would be just like the story of  wolf, nobody will believe you after experiencing too many time. Think before saying out the words.

Dont be a puppet of our heart, don't let emotions control you.

是否 有过那种 很低落 很堕落 的情绪? 就莫名奇妙地 想要一个人 我是说 那一刻 你就想要一个人。不管做什么 去到哪里 就不想为伍成群地。有时候 真的真的 只是有时候 就突然间 不想说话了。或许我该说 不知该说什么 哑子吃黄连的感觉? 说不出话来 虽然脑子里 卖命地 转转转 想想想  就是 说不出话嘛 脑空空。我不喜欢这种 被迫傀儡的感觉。我不明白 为什么我就是可以那么地情绪化 怎么任凭情绪的摆动。有人说过 抑郁是从情绪低落的开始。也许 是因为 某些人 或 某些事 使人久久无法释怀。其实就因为太过于执著于让自己情绪低落的那件事。有时候没有任何理由地就觉得所有的一切都令人讨厌。有些时候 就莫名奇妙地 发怒。生闷气, 气什么? 告诉我 我的脑袋 在想什么? 气得不想看见任何一个人 不想跟任何一个人说话。我不喜欢在生气时说话 我会胡乱发脾气, 我不喜欢。 在很多事情上总是旁观者清，而当局者迷。很简单的一个道理，说出来谁都明白，可当你做起来时却发现其实没你想的那么简单。说好多话总是感觉在自己劝自己了，也许真的是太多的事情和太多的无奈让我更加学会了去自我安慰。无意间地 别人一句无心的话 敏感的你 受伤了 你不喜欢争论 所以你选择离开 可你只是离开了那, 却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情, 许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明的你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。” 我常常就是这么想 可是 气先生来敲门时 你就是什么事都管不着。

猜不透的心 永远都不会变老

最近都用华文BLOG啊 也很抱歉地说 华文字数有限。我曾说过 像现在这年代 复杂得纠纷 人都会变 更何况是一颗脆弱的心? 我说嘛 不要让别人看透你。当一个人完全被看透的时候 到了那个时候 就是给别人机会伤害的时候。有时候 我是说 有时候 真的真的 必须把心锁起来 藏得远远的。想说  这个戏的VIDEO 真的真的 很感动。这电影是 <我的最爱>, < L for Love, L for Lies > 有空的话 不妨去翻播 虽然结局并不是很完好 可是我很喜欢。男主角 说了 真正爱一个人 是要给对方自由 而不是要去完全占有对方。爱一个人要讲 TIMING. 在错误的时机在一起 是合不来的。他看见了女孩的改变 他反而很开心。他说: “我们是不会分开的 因为好朋友是永远都不会分开的。”

她说 : 很多人和事 其实没有忘记不了的 只是看你自己想不想忘记。我整天对你发脾气 我是想你了解我。我有很多话想对你说 但我见到你 我不知道 我该怎样说。 我不是说想查你电话 但是 这跟买衣唱K一样 是我的嗜好。我希望你身边的女人 全都是 “肥婆” “猪扒” 和 “师奶” 我发脾气的时候 叫你不要找我 永远都是假的 你一定要回来找我。我发脾气跟你说的话 千万不要当真 我说不好 就是好 ; 我说不要 就是要 ; 我说不想 就是想 你明白吗? 我平常在街上走了的时候 你一定要把我追回来  我不想再玻璃和倒后镜里 看你有没有跟在我后面。 我整天说要减肥 其实我最想听到你跟我说 你一点都不胖, 我喜欢就行了。我没有安全感 是因为我太爱你 我不可以没有你。

相信所见的东西吧 来得较真实。

很抱歉 最近都没BLOG. 最近的心情都很差 也很忙 根本没有那种心情时间。周末到啦 想出去都懒惰 也没时间。好多好多功课 都没完整 怎么办？还有 ASSIGNMENT 得做 我快崩溃了。这几天 会很忙 很忙 很忙。极度的心情 搞得我很狼狈 什么事都做不好。还有还有 我班主任 都搞得我班同学 极度丢脸。她 会处罚你去做高调的事。朋友说 我性格很不好 让人很受不了。 的确 我性格很差 陌生人很难接触 也很难接受 基本上我该说完全不能。我经常发脾气 很情绪化, 生气时 摆张臭脸 也是最最最常见的。想说 其实我很珍惜也很爱他们。其实 此时此刻的心情很糟, 跌入谷底, 糟到一种程度 那种遭到无法在继续的那种。只是想找些东西 打发时间。情绪无法平服 坚强得自欺欺人 擅长用微笑去伪装 说其实我很好。我不相信谣言 我只相信自己的眼睛。很多人或事都是你控制不了的 也你不是你该掌控的范围。眼见的东西 即成事实。今天 我所见到的 也一样, 没有例外。再也不逃避 学会了面对, 成长了 好多好多。其实 面对着有些人事 会有牵挂 明明很舍不得 却一而再再而三 的坚持, 就像当初那股执著。其实 有时候会想就这样放弃了那股坚持 苯点 过个简单的生活。我并没讲事实上我很聪明 我只是说我希望我能够再苯一点 也该有个程度 并不是智障。单纯点 不多想 不多留意 不多在乎 不闻不问 那该有多好。但只可惜 我很清楚自己 我无法不在乎 无法坐视不理。怎么办 我越变越矛盾了。现在的我 很爱我自己, 我把心藏很远 。童话 虽说很美好 很纯美, 但 它终究是童话。我们这年代 复杂得纠纷, 请告诉我 哪来的童话 哪来的美好 哪来的真心。我不懂 不明白, 但 我爱童话。怎么就突然的想有个改变 我指的是 头发或衣着之类的东西。就只会想 不会有所行动。东西看久了  也会腻  对吗? 这是我在近年里 所领悟的道理。曾经 真的真的 只是曾经 有想过把头发都剃光了 来个换新, 我说了 那只是曾经年少时 不懂事时 闹着玩的。很荒谬 对吧? 我也不相信 这是我说的。是曾经过于的依赖 是曾经过于的关心 是曾经过于的陪伴? 怎么如今的代价会是如此的折磨。我不懂 到了哪天 我是否会因这突如的决定 而后悔, 我也不懂 那将会是如何, 我.. 或许就像某人所说的吧 时间会淡化。曾经 从一个人的精彩 到 两个人的分享, 曾经的那个人。谢谢你, 真的真的。我快乐过 也很幸福过。原谅她 就是这样的女生。

幸福的保质期， 其实很短暂。

Bad lucks, I get into recently. Had been tweet for 337 tweets, 13 following, 44 followers. I want to have more followers, anyone kind? I love twitter, I could abundantly express my feeling, my thoughts. Facebook is having spies, either my mummy's or my daddy's. I dislike to block my wall of Facebook from my relatives, or anyone else, Facebook is neglected. If you are my friends in Facebook, you might observed less status for recently. So, follow me in Twitter? " Since we being honest, I wanna tell you I hate the girls stuck by your side, I don't care whether you flirt her, or she flirts you. " , the lastest status in Twitter while I am here to blog.

Think, before you conclude on something. I am just giving out my example, my opinion and my thoughts. When you judge on someone, "he/she hurts me". I simply meant soulful relationship. Try to ponder of your conclution. If you don't give anyone chance, will they have the chances to hurt you, breaking your heart and ways to kill you indirectly? So.. as a conclude, we are the killer of our pain, our heart breaking and our wounds. 

The only reason people hold on to memories,

is because memories are the only thing that don't change,

when everyone else does. L Y M L ♥

I hate it, when peoples do not respect me, just like dispensable. I don't want to feel like dispensable. I would respect you doubly if you do respect me. Inversely, I wouldn't respect you if you do not respect me, I don't care whether you are the eldest or who you are, I am just abstinence.  I am actually having a lot of complicated-feeling, I want to express, I just don't know where to start. I miss you, hubbbiiesjou ♥ !

让我们回去从前好不好？ 天真快乐美好。

Contradictory feelings, made me feel like want to use chinese to blog. I am just beyond their grasp. As if you are my follower, you shall knew I had a broken chinese, a brain of limited chinese words. A girl who don't know the way to express her feeling, kind of girl full with emotions and mood changes such as roller coaster ride. If you are a stranger to me, you may feel like I am so.. arrogant? I am actually such a girl who might crazy in minutes and emo in the next. I could probably be my dudes' pistachio. I wore on smile everyday, somehow I do not sometime. I had a bad mood recently. If you are following my twitter or facebook, you might know I posted so many emotional words. Emotional disorder us. I mostly wrote in chinese, because I felt chinese can be a complete expression of what I want to express. I am a girl who kept her heart away from any boy, exception are exist. She is a girl who keep blaming God that do not give her a sweet smile, a pretty face, a professional brain. She is in fact better than many of them, but she was not satisfied. Human beings are too greedy and selfish. I wish the time will turn the clock back, I don't want to grow up. I miss my past, I miss my memories. I am not good at lying, and I would never lie if there's never need to. I hate liars, I hate to lie. Love is a choice, I think I learned. As dearest said, be eliminated that, is not necessarily inferior. In fact, every girl yearning for love as well, eager to be embraced, but there is fear of love's hurt. Maybe time is an antidote, is the poison are we taking now. Do not say love easily, guys. Girls have a vulnerable heart, too weak, too tiny to be broken. Sick of being love puppet, can I be your love slave?