Saranghabnida 난 당신에게 내 소중한 사랑

Don't expect guys. My teacher told my class about love. She said, I love you is a very common words now if contrasting with hundred years ago. Am I too exaggerating? Years ago, if a boy says " I Love You " to someone, some thought comes into your mind, and you will instantly know that he is saying to a girl, to his girlfriend, to his wife and to the one he loves. The same situation, if a girl says the three words, you would know that she is saying to a boy, to her boyfriend, to her husband and to the one she loves.
The three magic words, " I Love You " is expressing one's love by saying those words is a crucial step in any relationship. Normally girls do not like to confess that they are in love with a boy. It is a sort of masculine privilege and duty, you might say. You cannot to go up to someone and say " I Love You ". Love at first sight is a doubtful context for saying the three words. After all the sort of sudden attraction when you meet someone and feel a blinding passion or know from your instincts that he or she is the right person for you is nothing more than an infatuation. True love is gentler, more mature. " I love you " doesn't mean " I want you right now ". Rather it means " I want to be by your side always, I want to hold your hands and look deep into your eyes, I want to wake up every morning with you by my side. " In a mature love, people tend not to blurt out their love as soon as they meet a person after their heart. They wait till they come to know the person better. When you finally feel from the bottom of your heart that you're sure about being in love with this person, it's the time to say these words. People sometimes think why is it they have to be the first to confess their love? Why cannot the other person do so? It can be very embarrassing for a girl when she says " I love you " and receives a sheepish grin or a distracted reply in return. Again, there are times when a man wants to say " I love you " but cannot do so for the fear of rejection. At such times, it is best to trust your intuition to choose the right step. The timing of saying these words is important as well.

Back to topic, what I want to say is, in this century " I love you " might be a manners. It can be a girl to girl, a boy to boy, a girl to her ex, a boy to his ex. It's so common now. Some people still immature or even the abuse of this right. They used these words to get what they want and what they need. To the last hurt it will only be girls. That's why I hate liars. True love do not need to speak it out but feel it out. Time can heal a wound, create a relationship but can also destroy it. Trust me, don't speak these words too many times to too many people, it would be just like the story of  wolf, nobody will believe you after experiencing too many time. Think before saying out the words.

Dont be a puppet of our heart, don't let emotions control you.

是否 有过那种 很低落 很堕落 的情绪? 就莫名奇妙地 想要一个人 我是说 那一刻 你就想要一个人。不管做什么 去到哪里 就不想为伍成群地。有时候 真的真的 只是有时候 就突然间 不想说话了。或许我该说 不知该说什么 哑子吃黄连的感觉? 说不出话来 虽然脑子里 卖命地 转转转 想想想  就是 说不出话嘛 脑空空。我不喜欢这种 被迫傀儡的感觉。我不明白 为什么我就是可以那么地情绪化 怎么任凭情绪的摆动。有人说过 抑郁是从情绪低落的开始。也许 是因为 某些人 或 某些事 使人久久无法释怀。其实就因为太过于执著于让自己情绪低落的那件事。有时候没有任何理由地就觉得所有的一切都令人讨厌。有些时候 就莫名奇妙地 发怒。生闷气, 气什么? 告诉我 我的脑袋 在想什么? 气得不想看见任何一个人 不想跟任何一个人说话。我不喜欢在生气时说话 我会胡乱发脾气, 我不喜欢。 在很多事情上总是旁观者清，而当局者迷。很简单的一个道理，说出来谁都明白，可当你做起来时却发现其实没你想的那么简单。说好多话总是感觉在自己劝自己了，也许真的是太多的事情和太多的无奈让我更加学会了去自我安慰。无意间地 别人一句无心的话 敏感的你 受伤了 你不喜欢争论 所以你选择离开 可你只是离开了那, 却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情, 许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明的你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。” 我常常就是这么想 可是 气先生来敲门时 你就是什么事都管不着。

猜不透的心 永远都不会变老

最近都用华文BLOG啊 也很抱歉地说 华文字数有限。我曾说过 像现在这年代 复杂得纠纷 人都会变 更何况是一颗脆弱的心? 我说嘛 不要让别人看透你。当一个人完全被看透的时候 到了那个时候 就是给别人机会伤害的时候。有时候 我是说 有时候 真的真的 必须把心锁起来 藏得远远的。想说  这个戏的VIDEO 真的真的 很感动。这电影是 <我的最爱>, < L for Love, L for Lies > 有空的话 不妨去翻播 虽然结局并不是很完好 可是我很喜欢。男主角 说了 真正爱一个人 是要给对方自由 而不是要去完全占有对方。爱一个人要讲 TIMING. 在错误的时机在一起 是合不来的。他看见了女孩的改变 他反而很开心。他说: “我们是不会分开的 因为好朋友是永远都不会分开的。”

她说 : 很多人和事 其实没有忘记不了的 只是看你自己想不想忘记。我整天对你发脾气 我是想你了解我。我有很多话想对你说 但我见到你 我不知道 我该怎样说。 我不是说想查你电话 但是 这跟买衣唱K一样 是我的嗜好。我希望你身边的女人 全都是 “肥婆” “猪扒” 和 “师奶” 我发脾气的时候 叫你不要找我 永远都是假的 你一定要回来找我。我发脾气跟你说的话 千万不要当真 我说不好 就是好 ; 我说不要 就是要 ; 我说不想 就是想 你明白吗? 我平常在街上走了的时候 你一定要把我追回来  我不想再玻璃和倒后镜里 看你有没有跟在我后面。 我整天说要减肥 其实我最想听到你跟我说 你一点都不胖, 我喜欢就行了。我没有安全感 是因为我太爱你 我不可以没有你。

相信所见的东西吧 来得较真实。

很抱歉 最近都没BLOG. 最近的心情都很差 也很忙 根本没有那种心情时间。周末到啦 想出去都懒惰 也没时间。好多好多功课 都没完整 怎么办？还有 ASSIGNMENT 得做 我快崩溃了。这几天 会很忙 很忙 很忙。极度的心情 搞得我很狼狈 什么事都做不好。还有还有 我班主任 都搞得我班同学 极度丢脸。她 会处罚你去做高调的事。朋友说 我性格很不好 让人很受不了。 的确 我性格很差 陌生人很难接触 也很难接受 基本上我该说完全不能。我经常发脾气 很情绪化, 生气时 摆张臭脸 也是最最最常见的。想说 其实我很珍惜也很爱他们。其实 此时此刻的心情很糟, 跌入谷底, 糟到一种程度 那种遭到无法在继续的那种。只是想找些东西 打发时间。情绪无法平服 坚强得自欺欺人 擅长用微笑去伪装 说其实我很好。我不相信谣言 我只相信自己的眼睛。很多人或事都是你控制不了的 也你不是你该掌控的范围。眼见的东西 即成事实。今天 我所见到的 也一样, 没有例外。再也不逃避 学会了面对, 成长了 好多好多。其实 面对着有些人事 会有牵挂 明明很舍不得 却一而再再而三 的坚持, 就像当初那股执著。其实 有时候会想就这样放弃了那股坚持 苯点 过个简单的生活。我并没讲事实上我很聪明 我只是说我希望我能够再苯一点 也该有个程度 并不是智障。单纯点 不多想 不多留意 不多在乎 不闻不问 那该有多好。但只可惜 我很清楚自己 我无法不在乎 无法坐视不理。怎么办 我越变越矛盾了。现在的我 很爱我自己, 我把心藏很远 。童话 虽说很美好 很纯美, 但 它终究是童话。我们这年代 复杂得纠纷, 请告诉我 哪来的童话 哪来的美好 哪来的真心。我不懂 不明白, 但 我爱童话。怎么就突然的想有个改变 我指的是 头发或衣着之类的东西。就只会想 不会有所行动。东西看久了  也会腻  对吗? 这是我在近年里 所领悟的道理。曾经 真的真的 只是曾经 有想过把头发都剃光了 来个换新, 我说了 那只是曾经年少时 不懂事时 闹着玩的。很荒谬 对吧? 我也不相信 这是我说的。是曾经过于的依赖 是曾经过于的关心 是曾经过于的陪伴? 怎么如今的代价会是如此的折磨。我不懂 到了哪天 我是否会因这突如的决定 而后悔, 我也不懂 那将会是如何, 我.. 或许就像某人所说的吧 时间会淡化。曾经 从一个人的精彩 到 两个人的分享, 曾经的那个人。谢谢你, 真的真的。我快乐过 也很幸福过。原谅她 就是这样的女生。

幸福的保质期， 其实很短暂。

Bad lucks, I get into recently. Had been tweet for 337 tweets, 13 following, 44 followers. I want to have more followers, anyone kind? I love twitter, I could abundantly express my feeling, my thoughts. Facebook is having spies, either my mummy's or my daddy's. I dislike to block my wall of Facebook from my relatives, or anyone else, Facebook is neglected. If you are my friends in Facebook, you might observed less status for recently. So, follow me in Twitter? " Since we being honest, I wanna tell you I hate the girls stuck by your side, I don't care whether you flirt her, or she flirts you. " , the lastest status in Twitter while I am here to blog.

Think, before you conclude on something. I am just giving out my example, my opinion and my thoughts. When you judge on someone, "he/she hurts me". I simply meant soulful relationship. Try to ponder of your conclution. If you don't give anyone chance, will they have the chances to hurt you, breaking your heart and ways to kill you indirectly? So.. as a conclude, we are the killer of our pain, our heart breaking and our wounds. 

The only reason people hold on to memories,

is because memories are the only thing that don't change,

when everyone else does. L Y M L ♥

I hate it, when peoples do not respect me, just like dispensable. I don't want to feel like dispensable. I would respect you doubly if you do respect me. Inversely, I wouldn't respect you if you do not respect me, I don't care whether you are the eldest or who you are, I am just abstinence.  I am actually having a lot of complicated-feeling, I want to express, I just don't know where to start. I miss you, hubbbiiesjou ♥ !

让我们回去从前好不好？ 天真快乐美好。

Contradictory feelings, made me feel like want to use chinese to blog. I am just beyond their grasp. As if you are my follower, you shall knew I had a broken chinese, a brain of limited chinese words. A girl who don't know the way to express her feeling, kind of girl full with emotions and mood changes such as roller coaster ride. If you are a stranger to me, you may feel like I am so.. arrogant? I am actually such a girl who might crazy in minutes and emo in the next. I could probably be my dudes' pistachio. I wore on smile everyday, somehow I do not sometime. I had a bad mood recently. If you are following my twitter or facebook, you might know I posted so many emotional words. Emotional disorder us. I mostly wrote in chinese, because I felt chinese can be a complete expression of what I want to express. I am a girl who kept her heart away from any boy, exception are exist. She is a girl who keep blaming God that do not give her a sweet smile, a pretty face, a professional brain. She is in fact better than many of them, but she was not satisfied. Human beings are too greedy and selfish. I wish the time will turn the clock back, I don't want to grow up. I miss my past, I miss my memories. I am not good at lying, and I would never lie if there's never need to. I hate liars, I hate to lie. Love is a choice, I think I learned. As dearest said, be eliminated that, is not necessarily inferior. In fact, every girl yearning for love as well, eager to be embraced, but there is fear of love's hurt. Maybe time is an antidote, is the poison are we taking now. Do not say love easily, guys. Girls have a vulnerable heart, too weak, too tiny to be broken. Sick of being love puppet, can I be your love slave?

Ms Miao

There is always someone who named Ms Miao once in your life time, who used to be a fighter, to compare with you. Who used to deliberate every single part of you, as a topic with dearing. Who used to get angry with every nonsense of you, blame him/herself that do not enough perfect to challenge. Just for a winner and loser. Perhap anyone of you are my Ms Miao, and maybe I am others' too? I meant perhaps. 

I found out there's someone, who likes to compare with me. The someone who is having high self-confidence. In my previous posts, I mentioned I alway having less self-confidence. That's why I always appreciate him/her.  The someone, likes to compare whatever your things. The someone that maybe him/her do not copy and paste intentionally. I am not against whom, and also do not contain any offence. I just want to tell the someone, nothing to compare, nothing to fight, nothing to get angry, just to be ourselves.

I dislike to be compared. But I alway like to see and search for pretty girl. I love beauty. Type of feeling of admiration. I can't stop looking at pretty when I aimed them. They are too fascinating and tempting. I like Angela Baby. She is too perfect in every single way she does. I love natural beauty. I love sexy girl. I love charming girl. I love ethos girl. I love hybrids. Their perfect blood that are flowing, perfect skin, perfect eyes, perfect nose, perfect mouth, perfect fingers and every perfection. I want a V-shaped chin, I want to have perfect feature. Feeling so bad that I don't have all of these. Why don't mummy birth me to be a beauty as Angela? A huge and long lasting sigh again :(

Honey Friendship Week

Hello, I am here to blog again. Still a friendship post. A big sigh for our broken friendship, vulnerable friendship. I should confess I am having less self-confidence. I do not have courage to face it, dare not to speak the problem. As she said, " 她没有发言权 " Alright, I agree with you. I am not angry for this little stuff. Because I knew, it was the truth. I think you shall know the main reason, why were us mad at you. Firstly, I want to complain something, about your friend. We don't have qualification to control you of making friends with other, and that's a common. But our friendship problems were only related with you, me, and both of them. Are they having qualification to speak on something about our friendship? I meant, they are outsiders, I meant your new friends. They are just outsiders in case, for us. But why did them spoke so loud and feels like so-so understanding you? After friending with you for about three years, why don't I know? Don't say us heartless, we do really care about this friendship, we tried to retain but failed. I am sorry for the ignorance, and I know you were feeling bad. I had been this, I understood. I am type of person who used to be poor in communication. I am sorry for your disappointment? I want to tell you something that hiden. After three years of friending, you told us your feeling, you felt you were happy all day long with them. We asked, " In this three years, don't you feel happy before? " Your answer were really surprised me and disappointed us. You said your happiness were just outlooking, but not the fact. I guess you were too conflict to say this. Try to think, if you were unhappy, but why you answered us you were feeling better to join with them? Ain't your words too conflict? Still, you were too wrong for saying our friend like this, you knew its sound bad, what would others think of if they heard? And you were saying in front of your new friend, how would them think of us? I am not trying to blame on you or whatever, I just want to tell you my feeling. I want to solve this problem, we are trying. But too small to be if there is only my heart. Seems like we were just spreading out the problem and do not solve it.  The last, if you really want to join with your new friend, you feel joy to be with them, I meant IF. Then we'll set you free, and let you go. Do not contain any offences. Cheers always :)

Love yourself more than others! ♥

Today was the last day of  March. Tomorrow is April in order. And what we used to call the first day of April? It's April's Fool! It's the day that we used to fool our friends, families or whoever dearing. The earlier wishes for Happy April Fool. I wished for my education, my friendship, my love. Happy Birthday to my honey friend, Kee Zi Kuan. Enjoy your days and stop saying my bad! Hmmm, wishing you have your partner, your love as soon as possible!

Broken Friendship. Don't let things to built up before you explode.

Things do not get right in this recently. I am just like so fail, failure. Neither friendship nor love, I am always the failure. You chose your friend, you chose to be with them. In a way, it makes your bond more meaningful because it was cultivated purposefully. The time and effort that goes into creating a friendship is hard to go through again. Let's face it, no one is perfect. Everyone gets into fights with a friend from time to time. It's completely natural, and a very common problem. No matter how hard you try, or how loving or respectful of a couple you are,you are bound to get into a disagreement once in a while.  It can be very hard losing a friend. They are the ones we trust all of our secrets. They are who we turn to when we need help, and we do the same. Life is too short and too long to carry drama over your friendship. It's just not worth the problem it creates. Peoples make mistakes, and as long as they are a good person, they deserve a second chance.

Apology

I know it might sound cliche or that you might think that you're the one that deserves an apology. But the truth is that if you don't want to waste a lot of time and emotion then your best bet is to apologize. Even if  it is not your fault, apology is an effective strategi. For the most part,  every fight has some right or wrong on both sides. Apologizing is a key to rebuilding your friendship. It works because when someone has done something nice to them, they feel an immediate need to return the favor. That mean they'll soften up and likely apologize.

Ways to handle.

1. Give your partner enough space to voice his or her concerns.
I'm sure you hate it when people interrupt you, give your partner the same respect, even if you don't agree with what they are saying.

2. Make an extra effort to really understand what you partner is trying to say.
It is very easy to fall into the trap of thinking you know what they are saying, when in fact you may not have a clue. If your partner feels like you understand what they are saying, you'll find a way to end the argument far more quickly.

3. Don't say something you'll regret later.
Always consider your relationship like a glass. It is sturdy, tough, beautiful and clear when taken care of, but if it is mistreated or mishandled it can end up scratched, cracked or even broken. Take care in choosing the words you say when you are in the heat of the moment.

4. Don't bring in past woes.
The past is the past, let it stay there. If you dwell on past occurrences, you'll never find a solution for the future your partner will feel less loved and respected, and you will always feel negatively towards your partner. People make mistakes. Give your partner the chance to recover from them, and encourage and support them when they make the right choices.

5. Learn to compromise.
If you can learn to compromise, you'll find yourself in fewer disagreements. If you don't like something, then agree with your partner to find some middle ground. This also applies the other way. Be willing to come up with alternative solutions for things your partner doesn't like as well!

6. Realize that no matter what you say, you both may not agree on the issue at hand.
An argument is typically started because you want someone to agree with you about something. You think that the other person must not know all the facts, so you begin to explain it to them. The more your partner still disagrees with you, the more upset you usually get. But, if you realize that sometimes it is best to just let yourselves agree to disagree, you'll show your partner that you not only respect their opinion, but respect their individuality as well. You never know, maybe later on they (or even you!) might change their mind.

7. Make a commitment to talk about the situation until it is handled.
It's far too easy to run off and avoid your partner, or give them the silent treatment. Instead, make a commitment right now to each other to respect each other enough to work it out, even if it takes all night. Nothing is unsolvable when you are working together to truly find a peaceful resolution.

8. Make your relationship with your partner your first concern when you are in the middle of a disagreement.
This does not mean bend over backwards for them or compromise your integrity. Just keep in mind that the person you are arguing with is your best friend, lover and soul mate. If you both keep that at the forefront of your mind in an argument, it will keep what matters most away from cruel words or intent, your heart!


不想再当爱情的傀儡, 那真的好累好累。 有时候也会相像儿童般无忧无虑。 总是依照着长辈安排好的路径, 无须担忧, 那该有多好。现在的我感觉好颓废, 像一艘舢板在大海茫茫, 找不到陆地靠岸的舢板, 舢板受伤了的时候, 想呐喊救命的时候,  哭得歇斯底里的时候, 身边也只是一波一波的花浪在聆听。想放弃的时候, 却没人愿意在旁伸出援手。 等到想努力的时候, 也只是自己再为自己努力争取一次呼吸的机会。迷茫的时候, 没有指南针朋友, 只有意志立敌人。

Get your Angpow with your eldest, Smile

Everything starts with a word of new. I don't care, you guys must give me a big big angpow.

A new year and everything must be in new too! I have got my new pink-silky pyjamas. I like it so much, but if it is purple in colour, I would like it more. Besides, I have my new purple bed sheet. It's purple in colour! Oh yeah, like it like it. New clothings are usually worn to signify a new year. The colour of red is liberally used in all decoration, wherever you go it is all in red colour. Red packets are given to juniors by the eldest, married. Gamble during Chinese New Year is a normal tradition game, whoever don't like to win money? No one, we like to win! Is time for gambling dudes! Money-Money-Money. I would be going Ipoh/KL few days after. * don't miss me hehehe*

Taking our reunion dinner at about 7pm , waiting the coming back of uncle and aunt, and baby cousins from GentingHighland. I guess my house is going to bustle with noise and happiness. Having a homey-steamboat, showing how lovely my family members are. Loveeeee ♥

Give you a new year song, quite nice. Lastly, Gong Hey Fat Choy.

Another Toturial? I Dont Know, No Idea.

Girls spent, without considering. Girls are born to be rich.
I think you guy have done everything for CNY right? Manicure, Pedicure, Facial, Hair-Dye, and every-every single thing for making us to be nicer. I guess not only girls, boys do this action too. I meant, some of them having their facial at home, hairdye at saloon and so little thing of it. Ain't a curious of boys like to be in beauty nowadays.

A manicure is a cosmetic beauty treatment for the fingernails. A standard manicure usually includes filing and shaping of the nails and the application of polish. Many people may not know that there are actually a number of benefits to getting a manicure. Most people simply get their manicure done for two most common reasons, and these are to have clean nails, and to have beautiful nails as well. Getting a manicure is very stress relieving. Besides, getting a manicure is one way to pamper and treat yourself. It can be very relaxing to see beautifully done nails at the end of the day. There are a lot of wonderful nail polish shades that you can choose for your nails for everyday wear or for special occasions. I have done my manicure, so why don't you girl take action? Get your own style of manicure at beauty salon. It works well for looking better on your nails, it perfectly shaped your nails. Pedicure provides some sort of similar service to Manicure, is the same!

For protecting our nails.

Besides, need to have a rub on it. For shaping our nails.

A simple manicure, you can choose what the style/pattern you prefer.

Many style could it be, pretty right? Get your own now.

3D manicure

This is what we known as pedicure.

You can get them at beauty salon.

What are you girls waiting for? Beauty is not going to catch up with you if you don't catch them tightly. They are loved. Whoever don't like beauty? No one , Everyone do! Don't care about how much are you spending on beauty-making, as long as the outcome satisfy, and everything becoming worth.